“Where is that tension coming from?” I get constant (welcome!) messages from those who I’ve served with the product suite, seminars, and sessions. (67 countries at last count, isn’t that wild?) Common feedback I receive is the sudden absence of bodily tension and chronic pain after having a concern spiritually addressed. This is not just me tooting the TNM horn… I want to talk about how I developed what has become known as The Pledge. The Pledge is spiritual technology for reclamation from social ills. What is “social” if not us?
I was tired of having rock hard shoulders. Every time I would go out, my upper back, shoulders, and neck would become so tense. The social felt wrong outside of select spaces and individuals. (Social discernment is never “bad” but feeling trapped definitely approaches that.) I’d come to associate the tension with spiritual sensitivity. I’m just sooooo spiritual and there’s just sooooo much muck outside. This is typical thinking in many “spiritual” spaces, as if the world is something to bypass rather than somewhere we have chosen to be. There is no duality, only the appearance of such.
The upper body is thought to be the seat of masculine power. Again, since there is no duality, only the appearance of such, I, a woman, also have access to my own power coded as “masculine.” To create power where I felt none, I made myself artificially rigid. Why did I not feel my own power? Patriarchy, or, to be more precise, my investment in patriarchy as a weapon and false idol.
What makes weaponized patriarchy so very effective is its structural capacity and our individual investment. Fixation is idolatry and idolatry isn’t always conscious. I tried to pinpoint what exactly was making me so tense in a logical fashion. I tried all of the stretches, the exercises, the supplementation… None of it worked. There was no immediate physiological explanation. This is one of the many ways we avoid the feeling part of feelings. I realized I was so tense because whenever I was out in the world, part of me felt deeply unsafe.
I’d had several experiences I felt as traumatic to confirm that as reality. I was constantly bombarded with tales of male wrongdoing. Male supremacy was affirmed in law. It was sort of the shape of the world, though something in me knew very different. My beautiful body, that I was “stuck” with, could always be weaponized against me. My body had ceased to be my ally because my body had been coded as prey under weaponized patriarchy. No one and no-thing should have that much presence in your relationship to any aspect of yourself. Your self is divine and that’s not debatable.
My body, if I were to fill it and feel it with joyful awareness, truly had no more room to hold patriarchy. It was straining against my seams. Patriarchy teaches us to smother ourselves and still refuses to be satisfied. Satisfaction isn’t the aim nor is it possible. Appeasement doesn’t “work,” which is what subconscious allegiance to patriarchy aims to achieve. Again, the danger of this is that it is not conscious; it’s a constant program. Programs are magnetic. They draw in, they repel. If what you desire requires wholeness, this is something that has to be dissolved.
The pledge freed me from subconscious allegiance to patriarchy, misogyny, and misandry. I experience constant gender euphoria and feel truly unlimited in my self-expression. I wish this lived and known experience of presence and joy for everyone who wants it. If that is you, you should join me on Wednesday Aug. 28th. I will be walking you through this live, taking you through a Neurointuitive process in real time. You will be filled and fed. People of all gender expressions are welcome at this event.
Update: Another event has been added for September thanks to audience interest.
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